We all know how funny life is…the little surprises…the moments when you literally take a step back and say to yourself “is this my life?”…we all know it is true…and it was more than true for me on my wedding day! My wedding was a day full of emotions…but looking back I truly think I was in a state of “numb”. I felt like I was walking slow and everything was fluttering around me. That is until my new husband and I went to cut our cake. It was the first moment when I felt this feeling of defeat. A guest walking by said to my husband, “Congrats to you and the WIFE!” The ping in my chest is still throbbing. “The WIFE” this is what he called me, “The WIFE”?!? I went from an out-of-the-box individual, proud to be who she was, soaring above the crowd, making a name for herself woman to…The WIFE.
My husband thought nothing of the comment, high-fives all around, we cut the cake, feed each other, smiled for the camera and kept moving. However, for me it was a reality check…a flash of gasping for air in the smothering echoes of “the wife…the wife…the wife…”! I made a move in the chess game of life that took me, the queen, out and left the King standing…had I done the right thing? Had I made a mistake…?
To answer my last question, NO I did not make a mistake; but for someone who has enjoyed randomly beating her own drum to whatever rhythm she feels like for the past 28 years, finding a beat to share with my new husband has been a challenge, but a good one. Although our adventure is still NEW…being a wife is going to take some adjusting…and I am glad to be sharing this adventure with you!
